Didnt wan to wake up so early to go suntanning becos im sleepy...
BUT...
:D:D
so long since we gurls went sentosa tgth...
so ya i reached first...
Ate Mac breakfast wif the hot tea... :)
It warms up my heart.. :)
Heart to heart talk...
Tan for awhile only...
i want to go tanning again until im burnt...
haha
Though the sun is strong, i still ping ming absorb the Yang qi.. cos i super need it now...
After absorbing it, i feel my yinyang more balance..
haha... lame though
slack awhile at mac...shared coke wif them...
Deanna went to meet fren..
left me n mel..
I told mel i didnt want to go home so early..
she is such a sweet kind soul... acc me...
thanks mel.. Love u.. *blushing*
also not forgetting Deanna also.. <3
Must cherish him now.. make sure no regret... :)
Had long john silver...
random gossip wif mel~
didnt know where to go so we decided to go NEX cos we nv been before...
first time i feel the horror of taking escalator...
same goes to mel ba?
haha
I think ppl will think we are silly...
where got escalator goes up nv goes down..
lol...
So mel has to go church and im going home...
so we happily down the escalator saw the arrow pointing towards Dhoby ghaut so we happily boarded...
And we looked up the map...
*blink blink* !!!
why is it circle line.. not purple line
haha
so we alighted at Bartely
and trained back
haha
we are so funny...
Thanks gurls for the comfort when i really need it...
I promise ur i will be fine soon...
Next time can we tan longer :X

This few days having music therapy..
and im sure its help...
as long when i listen to emo song and i dont have the urge to cry
mean i have succeeded

All i want now is back to good fren...
No other meaning...
I can just slowly forget wad happen to us and treat it as a dream...
I have the heart to do so? what about u?
Now i know we are only suitable for Good fren...
Who wouldnt wan to have a good fren in their life...

I hate this feeling....
I feel that i'm left alone now...
No more sch...
I feel that i don't have friends...

Back to square....
Back to Desperate club.... :(
I thought i can be happy and xin fu...
Never thought this day will come
But it still come...
And i couldn't stop it to happen...
Cos i'm not the one who make decision but the one who must accept the truth...
Sad right...
who wouldnt wan to be the one who make decision...
Siewping!!!!
Jus accept the fact...

I Miss you yet i can't tell u...
I got hurted once but the pain is still bearable...
I thought that pain was healed when we tgth...
But it's jus adding on now...
And i never think much what if our r/s dont goes well when u accepted me...
One thing i couldnt accept is u dont love me...
Ya when we got tgth, i did suspect tat you dont love me at all..
But u keep saying i really love u la...
so i didnt think much wad if one day u dont love me le...
For u, u of cos wont hurt more than me...
You can jus recover fast and move on...
How i wish i can be like u.. say let go jiu let go... very xiao sha...
BUT me... say let go just let go meh...
if it is so easy then in the first place i dont love u at all...
All along is me who choose to shou hou by ur side and care for u...
So when i got hurt, it's jus my own fault...
I am just too Silly...

Ok i am trying not to think too much..
really trying hard...
On a brighter notes...
I went out wif my sis ytd !!! and wif her bf too...
the last time i went out wif her is dont know when...
So my sis loves to buy clothes... her wardrode not enough space for her to keep her clothes...
Went to fareast first...
so she bought like 3 top in one shop...
den 1 more at wisma...
She is ai mei...oops... haha... she likes to doll herself up...
but i am totally diff from her...
i am very casual wif my wearing...
only tat time when i first work, she taught me how to make up...
The first time i stepped into club is her who brought me in..
haha...
She is always my lovely sister!!! im always proud of having her as a sister cos she is pretty..
and she dote on me... <3
3 of us share one cup of honey lemon wif pearl at fareast...
den when we reached wisma...
Sis's bf... Brian...
He is so funny..
He is looking for mineral water but in the end he bought Mr bean pancake and bungdon soyabean wif pearl...
so me n my sis "Eeee"... jus now already drink now still drink tat...
my sis keep asking me to try and my reaction is No! No!No!
haha

Went to watch Priest and its not a bad movie...
And i found out ytd Passion card really costs $7 per ticket only.. and a free small popcorn...
so next time when i watch movie i shall bring my passion card out...
Next movie to watch... Pirates of the Caribbean..

Had Thai Express for dinner...
Tom Yum soup...
Bloated!Delicious!

Im always goaless in my life...
so im setting my goal now...
Find a job...
Earn $...
Spend but Save $ too...
Go Bangkok with sis...
Find someone who love me more than i love him...

Lastly, if u happen to read this post...
i want to say Sorry that even now we are frens... i will still continue to care for u...
so u are unable to shake me off from ur life... lol...
cos u are one of the importance person in my life tat i want to cherish...
haha

Happen to come across this song which express how i feel now...
Shi Xin Hui- Ni Mei Xiang(3) Xiang(4) Zhong Ai Wo...

Going SGH tml for my appointment...
Really scared...Fear...
Now i really scared of seeing doctor...
I finally can know wad happen to my tongue...
Pray for me... Hopefully no problem at all...

It's so near yet so far...
All along im besides ur life...
Can u feel ur heart and tell me all along wad am i to u?
Have i place an impt role in ur life?
Or you jus treat me like normal fren? Or im just one sided all the time?
Am i someone who make u feel fan?
Still rmb the first time u hold my hand...
The day when i acc u go converse warehse sale...
My heart beats very fast and u said my expression so funny...
Ya things are always sweet at first...
Things start to change...
Alot of factors tat cause all these...
Time spend tgth...
activities we do...
Work...
thinking and lifestyle...etc
You said we dont have much topic... have u thought before is just whether we want to talk more and not becos we have no topic?

I just couldn't accept the fact that u said u totally dont have feeling for me...
not even abit???
A little?
It's a huge hit on me...
Though i know i shld accept the fact and move on...
But there will always be time when i emo... if i dont emo at all something is wrong...

I really sincerely hope tat we can still be fren... I cherish u alot... Even last time as a fren, u are always my listener... I really appreciate... I don't wish u to disappear from my life just becos of this thing... its not worth it...

How i wish now i'm drunk...
Can anyone tell me good news...
Unable to smile...
Poor appetite...

One word to describe my life now is SHIT!
Ya really painful... hurtful...