Meet up with my year1sem2 classmates...
Fel, Brendan,Joe and KY
this 3 guys are still so funny..and dirtyminded especially Joe...
so long since i laughed until so uncontrollable which made me stop thinking of it at that moment...
Astons for dinner..
Our orders came but Fel not yet come...
so we waited for her to start our meal...
Suddenly Brendan put his ear near his food..
And he says...
My food is calling me!!!
lol lame...

at first plan to watch movie at The Cathay but only left with front row..
so we ended up sitting at Ben &Jerry with live band...
Brendan treat us Icecream cos he is going NS!
quite surprised he really kept his promise...
Thanks... especially the double choco.. super sweet and thick but nice!
They made me laughed and laughed which stop me from thinking him for that moment...
Thanks guy... :D :)

In future we must meet up again.. dont lose contact...

I love Twitter now..
haha.. i know i abit slow.. now den use Twitter...

Saturday meeting my Year1Sem2 frens...
Cant wait to see your..

Monday singing with Ahboy, AhLiy and AhFang... LOLs :D

17thJune next medical appointment..
I hate it when it is still so far away...
I want to get my result
Everything will be fine ba?

Now then i know there are still a few people who are there for me...
My sis :D At first she still want to acc me go interview but she last min has deal to close...
Deanna and Mel: Usually i seldom msg ur but when i msg ur... ur are there for me...
Geokhui: Last few days u are away to London but u still try to contact me thru fb when there's internet...And now u r back... we can meet more not like last time badminton teammate but nv go out tgth...
Lifang: Wadsapp wif me.. lol.. still ask me go jogging wif her... this few days still will suddenly random wadsapp me.. :D
Kaiyi: Listen to my grumble... ask me to chill... lol
Brendan low: Also listen to my grumble... never fail to cheer me up... he said ' there is not only 1fish in the ocean... there are many more in the deep ocean...' he is also as lame as me...
Jasper: Thanks for lending me a listening ear on the grad day... Sorry to make u paiseh...
Weichiang: Contact u this few days cos of finding job... and u also encourage me to look forward dont look back.. I still rmb Weichiang my sec sch chairman lol and im the Vice chairman lol...
Jinghao: u also lend a listening ear to me... thanks... and ya its not wrong for u to stand at neutral side..

Thanks people... Rather than making u guilty(if u really will), it is better for me to let down all the grudges... Continue move on... And if u happen to read this... Dont be self-reproached... You also didnt expect things would become this way... Overcome ur barrier and we are still gd fren... :D

Yesterday steamboat for dinner again...
haha..
Last sat also...
But it's okay.. becos i want to gain back to my usual weight...
When people see me, first thing they say... You become thinner le...
ya lol but am i suppose to be happy?

Anyway today went to jobstreet.com.sg to look for job...
and i saw one interesting job hiring decoration assistant dealing with balloon...

and I sent my resume to apply for Typist... sounds good...
Try my luck to see if i will be shortlisted...
Everyday in rp... every lesson... either we are busying typing in msn or typing other things...
I admit Deanna types faster than me... haha

When i told u Sorry for causing troubles in your life..
but u didnt reply.. No, you didnt create any troubles in my life..
It hurt... means to u i'm really a trouble maker in ur life?
And i always pester u... i guess u start to hate me or already hate me...

I care for someone but i feel like im being taken for granted... i dont feel appreciate..
ya la.. its true tat doesnt mean u care for someone, tat person has to do so to u...
BUT still....
i rather care for u... if u take me for granted... its ok...
This is the decision tat i made..
Nobody to be blame but me..

And Oh ya...
ytd my niece is doing her math assessment book ...
i sat besides her and guided her...
and i flipped thru the book and every prob seems easy for me ...
haha... ya lor... its pri4 math...

I LOVE Math...
all becos of my tuition teacher...
She makes me love math and during sec sch...
i will always work hard to get A1 or A2...
which i did for few exam/test...
But saddening... My 'O' Math i got B3...
very dissapointed...
Anyway... my sec sch favourite subjects were Math, Mother tongue, Chemistry... :D

Didnt wan to wake up so early to go suntanning becos im sleepy...
BUT...
:D:D
so long since we gurls went sentosa tgth...
so ya i reached first...
Ate Mac breakfast wif the hot tea... :)
It warms up my heart.. :)
Heart to heart talk...
Tan for awhile only...
i want to go tanning again until im burnt...
haha
Though the sun is strong, i still ping ming absorb the Yang qi.. cos i super need it now...
After absorbing it, i feel my yinyang more balance..
haha... lame though
slack awhile at mac...shared coke wif them...
Deanna went to meet fren..
left me n mel..
I told mel i didnt want to go home so early..
she is such a sweet kind soul... acc me...
thanks mel.. Love u.. *blushing*
also not forgetting Deanna also.. <3
Must cherish him now.. make sure no regret... :)
Had long john silver...
random gossip wif mel~
didnt know where to go so we decided to go NEX cos we nv been before...
first time i feel the horror of taking escalator...
same goes to mel ba?
haha
I think ppl will think we are silly...
where got escalator goes up nv goes down..
lol...
So mel has to go church and im going home...
so we happily down the escalator saw the arrow pointing towards Dhoby ghaut so we happily boarded...
And we looked up the map...
*blink blink* !!!
why is it circle line.. not purple line
haha
so we alighted at Bartely
and trained back
haha
we are so funny...
Thanks gurls for the comfort when i really need it...
I promise ur i will be fine soon...
Next time can we tan longer :X

This few days having music therapy..
and im sure its help...
as long when i listen to emo song and i dont have the urge to cry
mean i have succeeded

All i want now is back to good fren...
No other meaning...
I can just slowly forget wad happen to us and treat it as a dream...
I have the heart to do so? what about u?
Now i know we are only suitable for Good fren...
Who wouldnt wan to have a good fren in their life...

I hate this feeling....
I feel that i'm left alone now...
No more sch...
I feel that i don't have friends...

Back to square....
Back to Desperate club.... :(
I thought i can be happy and xin fu...
Never thought this day will come
But it still come...
And i couldn't stop it to happen...
Cos i'm not the one who make decision but the one who must accept the truth...
Sad right...
who wouldnt wan to be the one who make decision...
Siewping!!!!
Jus accept the fact...

I Miss you yet i can't tell u...
I got hurted once but the pain is still bearable...
I thought that pain was healed when we tgth...
But it's jus adding on now...
And i never think much what if our r/s dont goes well when u accepted me...
One thing i couldnt accept is u dont love me...
Ya when we got tgth, i did suspect tat you dont love me at all..
But u keep saying i really love u la...
so i didnt think much wad if one day u dont love me le...
For u, u of cos wont hurt more than me...
You can jus recover fast and move on...
How i wish i can be like u.. say let go jiu let go... very xiao sha...
BUT me... say let go just let go meh...
if it is so easy then in the first place i dont love u at all...
All along is me who choose to shou hou by ur side and care for u...
So when i got hurt, it's jus my own fault...
I am just too Silly...

Ok i am trying not to think too much..
really trying hard...
On a brighter notes...
I went out wif my sis ytd !!! and wif her bf too...
the last time i went out wif her is dont know when...
So my sis loves to buy clothes... her wardrode not enough space for her to keep her clothes...
Went to fareast first...
so she bought like 3 top in one shop...
den 1 more at wisma...
She is ai mei...oops... haha... she likes to doll herself up...
but i am totally diff from her...
i am very casual wif my wearing...
only tat time when i first work, she taught me how to make up...
The first time i stepped into club is her who brought me in..
haha...
She is always my lovely sister!!! im always proud of having her as a sister cos she is pretty..
and she dote on me... <3
3 of us share one cup of honey lemon wif pearl at fareast...
den when we reached wisma...
Sis's bf... Brian...
He is so funny..
He is looking for mineral water but in the end he bought Mr bean pancake and bungdon soyabean wif pearl...
so me n my sis "Eeee"... jus now already drink now still drink tat...
my sis keep asking me to try and my reaction is No! No!No!
haha

Went to watch Priest and its not a bad movie...
And i found out ytd Passion card really costs $7 per ticket only.. and a free small popcorn...
so next time when i watch movie i shall bring my passion card out...
Next movie to watch... Pirates of the Caribbean..

Had Thai Express for dinner...
Tom Yum soup...
Bloated!Delicious!

Im always goaless in my life...
so im setting my goal now...
Find a job...
Earn $...
Spend but Save $ too...
Go Bangkok with sis...
Find someone who love me more than i love him...

Lastly, if u happen to read this post...
i want to say Sorry that even now we are frens... i will still continue to care for u...
so u are unable to shake me off from ur life... lol...
cos u are one of the importance person in my life tat i want to cherish...
haha

Happen to come across this song which express how i feel now...
Shi Xin Hui- Ni Mei Xiang(3) Xiang(4) Zhong Ai Wo...

Going SGH tml for my appointment...
Really scared...Fear...
Now i really scared of seeing doctor...
I finally can know wad happen to my tongue...
Pray for me... Hopefully no problem at all...

It's so near yet so far...
All along im besides ur life...
Can u feel ur heart and tell me all along wad am i to u?
Have i place an impt role in ur life?
Or you jus treat me like normal fren? Or im just one sided all the time?
Am i someone who make u feel fan?
Still rmb the first time u hold my hand...
The day when i acc u go converse warehse sale...
My heart beats very fast and u said my expression so funny...
Ya things are always sweet at first...
Things start to change...
Alot of factors tat cause all these...
Time spend tgth...
activities we do...
Work...
thinking and lifestyle...etc
You said we dont have much topic... have u thought before is just whether we want to talk more and not becos we have no topic?

I just couldn't accept the fact that u said u totally dont have feeling for me...
not even abit???
A little?
It's a huge hit on me...
Though i know i shld accept the fact and move on...
But there will always be time when i emo... if i dont emo at all something is wrong...

I really sincerely hope tat we can still be fren... I cherish u alot... Even last time as a fren, u are always my listener... I really appreciate... I don't wish u to disappear from my life just becos of this thing... its not worth it...

How i wish now i'm drunk...
Can anyone tell me good news...
Unable to smile...
Poor appetite...

One word to describe my life now is SHIT!
Ya really painful... hurtful...