At times, it is really awful to have the thoughts of me probably being just a subsitution of her... Do u really treat me as ur best friend? or i am just someone who can be use as ur standby/backup?
slowly i get to know wad kind of person u are but i could jus say u are a complicated person...
I truly hope tat our friendship is true and we can be friend forever...
Anyone who step into my life and become my important fren, it really impact me alot...
im a sentimental person...
And not surprisedly tat i always look for listening ears be it at sch/work...
Just someone who im comfortable talking/whinning to...
Are all the things u said true?
I really hope.. 10yrs,20yrs,30yrs...... down the road.. we are still best friend...
Will that happen?

So wanting to sing but our time just so hard to coordinate...
and this Jason Mutu is going reservist next whole mth :(
Its good and bad...
Good is i dont talk so much with him...
Bad is when im bored noone talk to me...
I just find it damn amazing...
When i was at my previous counter...
i dont have the chance to know the rest of the ppl in other counters..
but now i guess all choco counter. at least i know a handful of them...

Yesterday sales were so bad... i dont know how... ppl passed by they dont look at our counter...give sample they dont wan... eat our sample dont buy...
i dont know what strategies i still can use... Feel so helpless...
Somehow i feel that im giving a bad impression to the rest of them...
cos my sales are really atrocious...
In the morning, working at MG... few mins later when i open shop, a couple walked in and bought choco from me... damn happy... seriously... i thought will be a wonderful day for me.. But..
I dont know.. i jus feel stressed up...
and soon... my pay is coming in... yea...
and i shld start planning wif my sis whether we can go on holi in October!
BANGKOK! I want to shop till my legs ache.. haha
Ages that i didnt go on holi...
I just want to leave spore for at least 3 days...
ever since that saddening thing happened, im trying to be strong...
Now is Aug... turning September...
already over-ed for 4mths...
My wound is 99.9% healed?
haha.. i guess so...
i just wan to stop breathing spore air...
Bangkok air!!!!

Sometimes... i dont know... what am i to u... i have to repeat lots of times but still u jus ignored...
(anyway im not referring to the same person above)
This few days i just wait till u text me first... ya u r busy too...
so i decided not to disturb, pester u...
jus like ytd... i tink this will be better ya...

Ever since i change to another counter i am very very stress with the sales...
But now... i guess i have used to it...
somehow know around wad time will open bill...

=) things....
I know new friends again!!!
One of them is Tan Mutu Jason...
last time when i worked at Fadina... i already seen him before jus tat i never smile or talk to him.. until tat day when belinda talks to him... i joined in the convo...
He can be my second brother...
haha

Yesterday was the first time i dont feel bored when working morning shift...
After work... meet up with my clique...
the fire wasnt really start up when i reach...
so i grab some bread to eat...
Hungry! haha
den slowly bbq hotdog, crabmeat , taiwan sausage..
and Yvonne created her own "salad" with bits of corn, crabmeat,hotdog,cheese,butter,asparagus... haha
Delicious..
Drank Sparkling apple with Martini and lime lemon...
nice combination...

den the more i eat, the more i feel lethargic...
den dad comes and fetch me... haha
Today first time i worked morning shift in shop...
forgotten to bring my cardigan...
frozen in the shop...
so i decided to stand outside of the shop... standing there watching the passer by
haha
which makes me look like an idiot...
no choice but have to cos outside is warmer than inside...
After work went to taka...
Fun chatting with them...
Brighten up my day though its already like 4plus...

5 more days to final destination 5...

Last wednesday...
went alone to get my blood test done...
I am scared but what to do...
I straight away turned to my right when the person poke in the needles...
damn gross when i see my blood flowing out fast...
first time i took my blood test...
my vision fading...
but this time, my vision was clear...
eating iron pill every morning before breakfast do help...

Last Friday...
Had an appointment with O&G...
need to do scanning...
MUST full bladder... -.-
so i have to force myself to drink lots of water until i feel urgent...
i lost count on how many did i actually drank..
roughly 20++ those small paper cone...
Plus one cup of red apple juice...
it's digusting... not thirtsy yet need to drink...
during the scanning, i could see my bladder...
and some other organs...
freaked out can...
im damn worried that there is anything wrong with me...
But Phew~ im fine...
Anemia not caused by menses...

Did pedicure with sis at fareast...
Happy =)
Thank u Sis...
making u wake up early in the morning acc me to SGH...
U really care and love me alot... Muack.. haha

afternoon another appointment...
after i ate iron pill and vitamin for ard 2mths...
my total red blood cells increase until normal range..
i thought i could stop the pill but the doctor still instructed me to eat it for 6mths...
OMG... at the pharmacy... the people gave me 3 mths prescription first...
i really dont like to eat iron pill... =(
Anyway i weighed... Gained 0.4kg...
time for me to lose some weight...
getting fatter and fatter...

Left with the most important appointment next mth...
And in the end who care the most?
Is my family...

It's so nice that i have a bff who can make me laugh and laugh...
even if i look at his face, i will smile... =D
He never failed to cheer me up ba...
I'm happy now... suddenly there's this guy popping out in my life saying he is willing to be my bff...
A brother tat i can complain..grumble to...
he also complain and grumble to me too...
haha...
Burping in front of him like non-stop...lol
and he will say "ENG SIEW PING ! LAST WARNING!"
hahahah
he is also as lame as me... humorous like me too... haha
really happy that i found a bff...
so far so good... never regret knowing u...
Wanting to say Thank You to u...

Monday went shopping with my sis =)
Bought my working black jean,shoes and socks...

i paid for my jean...

the rest my sis said she pay for me...

haha

for the shoes i returned her $2 cos by right its bad to give ppl shoes...

so ya i gave her back $2..

having a sister is a benefit cos they will dote on u...

everytime i go out with her, if she can, she will buy things for me..

when all my pay go into my UOB a/c, i shall treat her a sumptuous meal...
haha...

after tat dinner at ion..

ate katsu curry(my fav)

den went to a bar somewhere near little india with sis's fren, Joven...

Cass joined us after tat...

at first i tried red wine and white wine...

in the end i chose white wine ...

inside there's small cutes of apple and strawberry...

so diff huh..

den order strawberry magarita..

such a big cup lol...

Sitting at the roof enjoying the breeze...

I like..

my sis and her 2 friends all iphone...

so they started playing fruit ninja...

addictive lol..

so i also played...

Cass drives...

so she went to pickup her husband den send us home..

Thanks.. hehehe

I enjoyed sitting at the poolside heart to heart talk drinking beer...

competing who burp the loudest and longest...

haha..

i will win u one day!

Not to forget...

my new name is Tevia Eng...

Unique name?