There's a "guy" working at Godiva and we all are so curious if he's a male or female...
so we asked ridwan...
he said:' He's a male, but maybe he's confused of his sex...'
Me laughing non-stop sia...
He used CONFUSED this word to describe...
so me n weichiang keep using the CONFUSED word..
like when we are blur we said we r CONFUSED!
this word really made me laughed like mad...
so when we told Nick he also joined in to use this word...
haha

And i bluff Ridwan tat im a lesbian..
haha
ytd i worked same shift as him
so he asked me again so am i really a lesbian
so i laughed and said YA!

I think my the other eye candy not working le :(
Ytd was a bad morning...
Came 1 caterpillar bus but FULL...
Came another short bus but FULL...
waited like 10-15min later finally i boarded bus...
so i reached ard 935am... luckily i dont need to punch card...
so my eye candy also working morning shift :)
the whole morning was so quiet..
no customer and finally i opened 1 bill!

by right 6pm i could knock off.. but i rather stay back awhile to help out the gift thingy...
make myself busy...
i really wan Mazhui myself with work...
i hate it when im eating alone i will tink of u...
seeing u drinking wif ur fren suddenly this come to my mind...
u said u wan cut drinking le.. but we all know friends are very impt to u...
if they ask u out or go drinking u wont reject...
anyway i also dont have the right to bother this...

now i totally didnt msg u since tat day...
i was thinking if this continue we wont be back to gd fren anymore..
cos we dont contact each other...
this thing really frustrating me...
thinking hard wad shld i really do...
last time as a fren when im sick u still will unexpectedly msg me caring How am i? feeling better...
but now...
u also wont ask me How's my work..
u jus freaking enjoying ur life...
do u know this kind of feeling is damn terrible...
U can even treat a jus know fren better than me ba...
tats y i was saying im nothing to u at all...
I am jus a SHIT in ur life...
still say wad guilty to hurt me...
den cant u jus treat me nicer as a friend...
u hurted me so much when we tgth couldnt u now as a normal friend jus treat me nicer...
why are u always so selfish!
still say u are not happy to see me suffer...
now im suffering... trying not to tink of u so ping ming work...
weichiang still said jus record down the time i left work..
and i said:' Dont need, it's me who volunteer to stayback so i wont take this money.'
i rather make myself busy wif work than going home thinking abt u...
The best way to make me stop being so terrible is YOU! Can u not be so cold to me...
If u still dont know how to face me now but cant u jus msg me sometimes asking how m i...
jus becos we broke... our previous friendship also Break?
our friendship so fragile? i dont mean anything to u in ur life...
ya lor... u have so many friends beside u in ur life...
without me this fren its alright for u...
since im jus a SHIT!
You will never know how is the feeling like when u feel so yuan wang and feel tat u dont deserve this kind of cold treatment but still i get this kind of ending...

Can u just treat it as doing charity?
Stop making me feel even terrible...
u know very well all along u are an impt friend to me...
i know very clear if u care for me it's really purely friend care and not others...
i didnt put in any hope tat we can patch back cos i know it wont happen...
i jus wan be ur friend...
ur Good friend!
And u said before... friend dont have expectation...
but ME...
thing had happened and we couldnt change the fact that we once tgth
jus becos u dont have feeling for me
u could jus throw me away?
Throw me to the bottom of ur fren list stated as STRANGER?
im diff from ur previous gf...
u cant treat me like how u treat her...

Can u jus show sympathy to me...

Just treat it as doing charity?

Morning shift today...
Very tired...
Nua at the sofa and slowly bite the cheese cake tat mom bought...
Prepare and off i rushed to busstop to wait for 190...
still alot ppl...
i managed to squeeze in...
Really very sleepy but when i think of my 2 eye candy at my workplace there...
so i reached counter and didnt see them...
finally 1 came and today the other didnt work... :(

So do the usual stuff...
cut nogurt, refill dragee etc...
Lunch i ate Yoshinoya wif my neighbour... haha...
he's from NP... also waiting for NS..
so he was grumbling abt his boss...

After work went home to take Fel's present and passed it to her at her house..
Her house is super beautiful and big...
From terrace to bungalow...
Envy... hehe...
Sorry Fel... at first going for ur party but im celebrating father's day...
Meet up again ok?
Ky represented 3 of us...
haha

Ate Mahantann Fish Market...
The food so so only...

And i told sis next time she goes Shanghi Dolly must bring me along...
haha den she said there is for old ppl de...
but wad i know from her there's live band singing chinese song...
I love to listen to chinese live band...
so ya... I must visit to Shanghi Dolly soon... :)

Tml afternoon shift :(
I think my eye candys are morning shift even if they work cos i didnt see them work afternoon shift before and their working time are weird also...
Calculate my pay so far... still not bad...
Continue jiayou ba...

Nowsaday when i saw my phone there's msg, i really hope its from u..
but its dissapointing cos its not...
Sadded...
If i dont take initiative to msg u, u also wont msg me...
even if you as a friend ask me 'How is work?' I will be super happy le...
but u didnt cos u draw ur line very very clear... Do u know this kind of feeling really S***...
Couldnt be couple forever was already very sad...And im very clear tat i have NO more hope anymore...
Now becoming back to friend is really so hard... I really want things to back to normal...
As long our friendship can slowly turn better my wound will heal 1 day...
If our friendship worsen, my wound will never heal cos this even shows that becos of wrong decision made in the first place has caused a bad unwanted consequences...
Today 12th June suppose to be our 6mths but we didnt last till here...
this is my first r/s, i will rmb this date 12th when the day i got tgth wif u and 7thMay, the day u broke wif me...
Can u please come talk to me? Treat it as sympathy to me can?

Yesterday Afternoon shift...
reached the counter and the sales are really bad..
so 3 of us panic but end of the day, the sales amount managed to reach the daily average amt...
Phew~
And...
Everyone working there will at least get Kiap by the nougat drawer...
I Kiap my left middle finger because i pulled out the top drawer and at the same time with the top drawer pulled out, i pulled out the drawer tat was jus below it... so tats it.. "Ouch"
so i tried to be careful again...
Second time comes~
anxiously pulled out the drawer...
KIAP!
This time its not my left middle finger, its my right 2 fingers...
"Ouching" very loud...damn it...
It's super duper Pain!

When i reached home... my dad fry noodle so i smell gas stove smell in the toilet and
i said :' Ba... Mei Qi Wei.. den he said No? so i turned my head out of toilet and smell the kitchen.. really No... so i turned back..
Bang! i hit my head against the wall super hard...
I hit somewhere near my left eye but luckily is at the tail of my left eyebrow... if not i tink i will turn blind ... and now its swollen...
I think yesterday im very reckless.. super Gong!
I still scared i will get concussion lol...

On a happier side...
Choco aunty gave me try her Macadamia nut with red wine coating choco...
Also some other new flavour choco...
their choco are healthy cos its sugar free and their choco are selling by pieces and not gram...
some 1 small choco can cost up to $6-$7?
which is like my 1 hr pay..
haha
but tat nice aunty everyday let us try...
keep asking us "Gurl/Boy want to try my chocolates.."
HAHAHA

Yesterday i drank 2 small cup of coffee..
haha
this time the coffee aunty will make the coffee and bring it to our counter...
Thanks aunty...

And~
There is one customer who ate our sample pastry from...
Weichiang was serving him and i standing at the side and the customer suddenly did something and i was shocked and so weichiang also... after the customer walked away...
me n weichiang keep laughing so Nick asked" wad happen"
and we said and laughed non-stop
den he said Dont keep laughing at tat customer la... very evil lei..
everyday will definitely have some funny weird things happen...
and so far working with the 2 guys are fun...
we joke n crap...

And...
My working area there's a handsome guy... haha
Eye candy...
but his counter is beside beside mine...
I can only see him when i walk to toilet...
haha
in fact actually from my counter i still can see him...
haha... side view...
ok.. i Fa Hua Chi again...


And...
I please you...
can you dont be cold to me anymore when the next time i see u?

Yesterday full shift was tiring...
becos both lady boss came to the counter so i couldnt slack...
have to keep standing outside counter shouting Hi Madam, any nougart/pastry for u?
keep turning left n right to look out for customers...
Had my lunch alone.. I hate it...
Bought the korean cripsy cutlet and went to the fountain near taka square sit down and eat
Damn full after tat went toilet n back counter again...
so i continue call out for customer to try out product...

Finally boss left n i could slack awhile inside the counter....
Dinner i only had 1 stick of toriQ?
den i did washing and Nick did closing...

I jealous of people who get attention from others naturally...
sometimes i want to get attention from ppl but none gave....
Sad right...
From last time since i like u... i always hope u can sometimes lay ur eyes on me.. but did u?
U would always lay ur eyes on other gurls but not me...
and miracely, at least for tat 3mths u did really look at me...
after tat worst thing in my life had happen...
things back to square one or i could say turn worser than before...
U dont talk to me.. i dont talk to u...sometimes i msg u, u did reply but ur reply is so short...
tats y i said im so thick skinned and chi tao ku chi...

seeing u talking to others so happily...
and im so quiet there...
I dont know y i should torture myself like this...
already know tat i will be left out still.... maybe if i try to join in but u also wont bother abt me
I was trying very hard to make things become better but i think its becoming worst...

Sometimes ppl who can get attention from others should feel fortunate cos at least ppl look at u... and u... u always get attention from the ppl ard u, u where will know how it's feel like when noone pay attention to u...

Me... posting anything in my fb... posting anything in my blog... i doubt ppl will see it...
Now i just continue this job since i work most of the time seldom off...
and den i can plan an oversea with maybe jieliy,lifang,weichiang...
Bangkok!!! Their clothes are super cheap there and fashionable...
and i swear... if tat trip comes true.. i will throw away those ugly clothes...
sometimes have to dote on myself.. make myself happy by wearing pretty clothes..pretty shoes...pretty accessorities... since i am NOT pretty at all be it inner/outer no wonder cant attract u.. ok im ugly.. unlike my sis... so many suitors..

Ok today my 5th day of work :D
hmm.. im still doing quite ok at my workplace?
at least i start knowing my neighbours...
haha
ytd the whole day, from morning till night i was staring at the coffee opp my counter...
and finally the aunty asked me... Xiao Mei u wan try our coffee... Yes!
and their coffee is nice! very smooth abit of bitternesss..

Gotten a new job at taka basement2 selling nougarts,pastry and choco...
Fri, first day of work... weichiang asked me work full shift so i went to the counter during morning... den the counter has so many ppl... so i shld be working afternoon shift... becos of some communication error lor... make me have to wait until 1pm den go back counter again.. come early didnt get paid...
I learned the diff types of pastry, how to be a cashier, how to pack and weigh things etc...

2nd day of work,Sat
Worked morning shift after work went home to eat dinner and prepare to meet the rest for drinking...
Went to White bar and i only sang 1 song...
At first just wan to drink as much as i can but next day i got to work so i cannot drink too much
wasted this time becos this time i could stay outside overnite...
Dedrick and brendan drunk.... they are super scary...
i wonder wad will i do when im drunk?

3rd day of work, Sun
Afternoon shift with weichiang...
he is so angry with tat guy cos he threw away his 1.5L water so he revenged...
he put in small sample into tat guy's water bottle...
Me and Nick scared tat later he found out den we are doom!
weichiang at first jus wan to throw his bottle into dustbin but we said CANNNOT la!
so he threw in and took out again...
disgusting sia... so wicked...
haha

Hardly i can get to sit down only during my 1hr break..
so my ankle abit swollen... stand too much... leg aching
I called dad den he said he is outside so he can come fetch me...
haha... my dad is so nice.. he still ask me eat dinner le ma..
den i said i ate at 5pm... so he drove to nearby mac bought mac home...
Also HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER!!!
STAY HEALTHY...
maybe im the youngest tats y my dad control n care for me more... haha
I got friends who care for me... i got family to love me... u dont love me nvm i go find others who can...

ton whole night and didnt get to slp at all..
at first i dont feel sleepy in the afternoon...
nighttime i started feeling ......
den i went crazyy abit...
keep laughing and talk nonsense...
but working with weichiang is fun cos i got someone to talk n crap to...
so the time will pass faster...
So far i got choco to eat from the counter besides me and coffee to drink opp me :D

Today OFF! haha.. damn tired so i sleep n sleep until 11am.. shiok..
Now i got myself a job though its jus selling choco, nougarts, pastry but i can interact with customers so its not a bad thing afterall... enhancing my social and communication skill...
it's important to Da Hao Guan Xi with the rest of counters...
I think this month i will work quite alot of days.. sometimes still need full shift... so it will cancel out the rest day... full shift work 10hr so can earn $70 a day
Saw this at twitter.... Quoted from Xstrology
-Pisces always gives more than they get...
-Pisces tend to be more concerned with other people problems then their own. Not because they are nosy but because they care.


If u dont like to read this kind of post u dont read..
I doubt u will read my blog also...

Ya la its your choice whether u wan to reply my msg...
just becos u dont have feeling for me
just becos u broke with me
U find that u have the rights to treat me like this...
So all along our friendship is so fragile?
jus becos we broke up its hard for us to be back gd fren?
from last time, u dont notice me...
maybe i just dont have any good attractive qualities to attract u
last time since when u have really sit down n tink what kind of person am i...
until when i confessed to u den u think...
Am i really such a bad gurl? no attractive qualities tat can attract u to look at me?

Now i know i dont know u at all...
What u are thinking/feeling... All i dont know since last time...
I thought u will treat me better as friend now cos u said u hurted me but NO!
I thought after broke up u will feel guilty and mibu me by caring and talk to me more but NO!
I rather like last time when we are gd fren... u would care even more...
Now even though we talk but jus abit... we are so stranger now...
I hate it u know...
I couldn't stand this...

Can u teach me to be so normal in the clique?
Teach me how to show that everything didnt happen and you can be so happy now...
U say u r guilty...
Are u sure anot...
dont always lie to me...

Jiang nan ting yi dian... I am just a toy to u...(though u said im not but u just make me feel im)
Sudden xintong and u accepted me...
tgth starting u are nice n sweet towards me...
when ur feeling started to fade off
you started to show attitude and sometimes ignore wad i asked u...
No more feeling u can just throw me away...
You dont know how to appreciate me nevermind i can go find someone who treat me like gold and not grass...
I could see u treat her like gold... cos u like her ma... ur feeling for her slowly build up...
Couldnt be couple be best fren... Ur treating to her is bias... becos she is not just ur bestfren but also someone u like...

You said everytime after work u are tired of msg/reply me
If u r tired of replying me den u can just tell me...
U go think abt it.. if its her who msg u, u will feel tired meh...
The last time i met u and supposely im going to say everything out but i failed...
If u saw this post u of cos super angry thinking why am i still digging out all these...
my heart is made from fresh.. im not cold blooded... i m super emotional person
No matter what this was my first relationship... U RUINED IT!
U think i can be so xiao sha just treat it as a game?
Though i said i promise not to bring it out again, i still have the freedom to say out how i feel...
U always broke ur promise so can i...
Since u ignored my msg tat i talked abt all these den i rather jus write it in my blog and next few yrs when i read back all my posts i will think that I am so so Silly last time...

I am angry and hate u until i wish to slap u but i still wan to thickskin care for u...
I think i really still need time to cool down...
jus make myself work n work n work and i will be fine and let go the past...
continue living my life and let nature takes its course to turn us back to gd fren...

Ok i didnt get the choco job...
sadded...
I think im currently down in luck...
i shld go Da xiao ren sia...

Monday meet up with Weichiang first, the kind soul...
cos he acc me down to see his agent...
so i meet him bus tgth..
and i asked him..' alot of ppl ma?'
becos 190 always very packed...
I said 'help me chop seat lei'.. haha im very aunty i know..
so i went to that agency... i see alot of very young agents...
so its my turn to go in 'interview'
that 'interview' didnt last for 10mins i tink
haha
he only asked me how long can i work?
wad kind of job im looking?
so i told him im looking for temp job cos i still dont know wad fulltime job i wan work...
so he smiled and said ohhh ok..
haha.. im so direct rite.. i tink when the agent heard wad i said he stunned...
so he's very friendly and tall.. haha
weichiang joke wif me say I fa hua chi liao...

After tat meet up with jieliy first at lot1...
went to popular cos she wants to change her name on her member card...
so we waited like 15mins?
meanwhile i saw very big O on the assessment book
so i went to flip thru Amath to search for that yr i took..
totally dont rmb those questions sia...

Up to the food court and fang reached first..
haha
den we sat at a big round table wif only 4 of us.. haha
den we discussing abt oversea trip..
batam? bali? jb? bangkok?
den jieliy said " I want to take plane"
den i forgot who say take plane to batam...
haha
i thought batam can only by ferry?
jieliy and me so wanting to go bangkok
den fang said " bangkok DANGEROUS NOW!"
Sadded :(
so weichiang said he wan to go macau to see ppl gamble...

Chat and Chat...
finally going 7...
so slowly walked to lot1 kbox which i nv been before
jus renovated not long ago...
the system also upgraded...
touchscreen with alot of functions...

Noone dare to start off...
so fang said " Lets O Ya Bei Ya Song"
Weichiang first
Me second
Jieliy third
Lifang Last

finally found someone who knows alot of songs...
and sing Shen Mu Yu Tong song wif me
and sing Dai Ai Ling song
Wa
Leow Weichiang!!! i found a competitor liao..
someone who fight wif me Dai Ai Ling's song...

&&&&&
Suddenly the tv blackout!!!
while weichiang singing
All of us shocked...
haha

10pm they chased us out le...
didnt sing enough...
shall meet up again for singing session...

Thanks ppl for the encouragement.. :D

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If nothing goes wrong.. i will be working soon :D
Pray hard